Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Holding Pattern

After a disappointing doctor's visit yesterday, I am struggling to be content with this current birth plan. What is the current plan you ask? If I go into labor on my own, I *get* to have an unplanned, emergency c-section, unless baby turns south, which would of course be ideal, given that my alternative is, I *get* to wait until 39 weeks (next week) and then we'll casually plan the c-section sometime after that magic number. I feel like my midwife and I had a failure to communicate yesterday, which is frustrating.

Not to get all religious on you all, but please be praying along with me. I'm a hormonal wreck right now. How I feel reminds me of how I felt stuck in the hospital on bed rest with Princess #2, when I got all the post partum depression out before she was born. And the thought of not having a plan in place with this baby being breech, is freaking me out. I'm in uncharted territories here. Also please pray that my midwife will hear what I try to communicate to her at our next visit (which by the way, I'm praying we don't have to have-that he will come before Monday!!) Thanks.

The great news is that baby is doing great-obviously very happy and content where he is at. And really, you can't ask for more than that, as much as I want to.


Chelle said...

Dear God;
Thank you that you have the whole world in your hands...that you have Sarah and Prince Stubborn in your strong, protective, gentle hands. Please help us to feel a peace that passes human understanding while we wait.

LaughterThoughts said...

You have been heavy on my heart and in my prayers... that you will have peace and comfort in this time of uncertainties and unknowns. Don't hesitate to call for whatever reason!